&Now all I can do is smile..

..& Fade into the background.



Hey now, BeautifulCreature, you ready?


♥

Hmph, howw cutee..

&Random visits while I look like shitt in my PJz make me smileee(:
Extra points for youuu.

Ahhhh, I tried to warn you, never let this dayyy comeee!
Pwuahhahaha,woow.
I'm too much for anyone's lifee=P

Kaiis is fucking amazing. Period pointblank.

Ahhh my Mrs.Lopez that takes the words right out of my heart!

"I think that I'm a liddo bit in lalalalalalovee with youuuu!!"

My wifeY is the shit. ("Y" because you know, I already got a wifE.)

Thatss a bad bitch, she gna be a baddddddd bitch tho. Just watchh.

MY badddddd bitch(:

Tweedle Dee & Tweedle Dumb.

Goober/Guhgernkkk!

How'd the butcher introduce his wife?

MeAt Patty_(:


My Diamond is forever, this girl's bestfriend.
♥

You're such an interesting creature, I surely do wish I would have seen you grow over the years. Everything about you is so.. Intruiging. It pains me to believe that I'll never pull you as close to me as I want to 'cause everytime you smiled, I got lost. Everytime our eyes met, it's was like I was pulled into some sort of untold fairytale. All I want is some answers & a chance. Not because I feel as though I deserve it but, because you do..I guess I've found something else to wish for at 11:11,hmph.. "Allow me to embrace the “ I “ statement. I, love as if my life depends on it- simply because it does."

Paint the picture.. & Then what?

If you woulda told me then that now was going to be this, I woulda told you that you were a fuckingg liar, & today, you woulda laughed at me. "I told you so."

So in the end, was it worth it? Jesus Christ. How irreparably changed my life has become. It's always the last days of summer and I've been left out in the cold with no door to get back in. I'll grant you I've had more than my share of poignant moments. Life passes most people by when they're busy making grand plans for it. Throughout my lifetime I've left pieces of my heart here and there. And now, there's almost barely enough to stay alive. But I force a smile, knowing that my ambition far exceeded my talent. There are no more white horses or pretty ladies at my door.

Check me out tho!
So, my Squeezer,right?
She's in this contest! & She neeeds to win!
If you have a facebook, search Avriel Epps & watch her video on why she should win(:
Its like,fucking obviousssss!



Send them messages with the phrase "PICK AVRIEL!"
http://messaging.myspace.com/index.cfm?fuseaction=mail.message&friendID=404670821&MyToken=c304c76d-85b4-456c-a5cc-910cba1fe5af

or comment them bitchesssss!
http://profile.myspace.com/index.cfm?fuseaction=user.viewProfile&friendID=404670821









GO! GO! GO!
=]]

I want theseee.

Gimmie likeee, nine bills so I can cop 'em, yeah? Cool,thanksss.


Mm, sexxy ass shoes madee me miss my girlfriendd..!

Preshonela,comee toooo mee,bby!♥

&I lovee my Daughterrrr!(:

Videos from us cominggg soon,pwuaahahhaah!

&My amazinggg husbandddd!

I miss yourrr faceeeee!
&I musttt,musttt seee it soooon!
Youuu LIGHT upp my worldddd(:


&To my EXhusbanddd,gooodluckkk tomorrow, I'm praying for youuuu & I lovee youuu!

&My Boooski,gahhhh! My fuckinggg heart, you jstt don't even knowwww...♥


Kayyy, that's all for noww, tooodles worlddd.

Mm.. My lifeee! - LMFAOOOO!


"Fuckkk the paperrrr, chaseee the dreaaam!"
"I"m hungryyyy muthaaa fuckkaaa! Sendd me intoo the junglee butt ass nakeddd!.. I'm coming outtt with a full chinchillaa suit & fat as fuckkk from eatin' them muthaa fuckazzz!"

Yesterday was an inspirational dayyy(:, in it's own little wayyy.


These love shapes that keep getting bigger are getting really fuckinggg sick,LMFAO.
For real!

Hmph,can I just repeat myself? 'Cause I haven't said it ina minuteee.. "Girl, you jstt don't knoww! =P"
&I can't knockk you,dudeee. Two wrongss don't makee right but, they make us even. &That's cool, righttt?

&Now, all I can do is smileee(:
♥

January 20,2009.

I feel so blessed being able to watch history being made.
Inspiration for dreaming the impossible,ahhhh!
I love my President!


Michelle, watch out now, you don't know what to do with that=p

kayywhyyx OBAMA!

Anyone who has or is willing to lick peanutbutter off a females ENTIRE breast, please, come talk to me. I have a lot of questions.

Yucaipa?! - THE FUCKING BOONIES!
Amazingg night,much neededddd.


Anywhom, let's get downt to business;


1) THE L WORD SEASON 6 - WHO KILLED JENNY!?For real? Jenny, my nigga? Sadd shittt.&Poor fucking Shane, her life is just, AHHH! A mess!But, anyone that can find her & bring her to me to fuck for a whole day, can have me however they want, for real.


2) Reality leaves a lot to the imagination - "Maybe it was reality before you imagined it."
Got me thinking, much?
&On that note, I'm Preshonela to thee maxxx in my sleeep tonighttt, wakingg up cheesinggg!(: Pwuahahahahha. Didddd thaaaaa!

3) This is where I'm att & I can digg it.

Answer me this, please?

What's the difference between love & being in lovee?

& Where does intimacy fit into both of them?

Hm?

Just, wondering.

Everybody has insanities,



I have a split personality.

kayywhyy♥

I wish I could read minds, "Do you see what I see?"

Get the picture from another lenz, yah know?

I wish it didn't matter as much as it does & I know that one day it won't but, right now, it's not easy. "It'll get easier. Why? I don't know." - I'm not sure how much I believe that but, I do.

Now, I do as I please and lie through my teeth.

Someone might get hurt, but it won't be me.

I should probably feel cheap but I just feel free...and a little bit empty.

No, it isn't so hard to get close to me.

There will be no arguments, we will always agree.

And I'll try and be kind when I ask you to leave.

We'll both take it easy.

But if you stay too long inside my memory,I will trap you in a song tied to a melody.

And I will keep you there so you can't bother me..

When I see him I can’t shit for a reason, I stop breathing, gotta keep myself from cheesin’ & I mean it. Like my first time, I wanted it so bad, anticipation’s building up it’s him I gotta have. From head to toe, boy, you know you got it & you know I want it. I swear on my life can’t no other guy make me feel the wayy you do, you should be my favorite record.. I’d spin you again, I’d listen to you all day, even play you for friends. Tell the DJ turn it up, all night we gon’ burn it up. You should be my favorite.. Spin you again, I would wanna feel you anytime I got a chance. Hear you on the radio, sing you all the words I know, again & again.
An addiction, I’m stressing over him. Got my mind in constant rotation, gotta see him out ‘cause I’m losing patience. Last time I let him be, he had me singing melodies that fit so perfectly. He’s my favorite single, I can’t wait to get him to myself & then we’ll pick up where we left off, we’ve been on pause for tooo longgg.

♥

I lie to myself everyday.. About everything.

From the minute I wake up to the minute I close my eyes to sleep.

I have to.

It's the only way I know how to survive.

♥

I could KILL someoneee!

..With this fucking smileee on my face(:

&You?.. Haa'!

You can blow me, bitch.

Ina real ass way.

All of this & I still keep it going from ear to ear.

This has been quite the morninggggg.

People trip me the fuckkk out,yo.

But, I can't knock 'em 'cause I've been that person beforeee.

Happens to the best of us.

I CARE! - Just a reminder since you obviously forgot.

You're the Starsky to my Hutch!

The Harold to my Kumar!

The Rob to my Big!

You myyy niggggaaaa for lifeeeee,beeezy!

I LOVE YOUUUU!(:

&I'm always here, even when it doesn't look or feel like I am, I am.

I'm an 818 number or an AIM awayyyy.

There are places I remember,

All my life though some have changed.

Some forever, not for better.

Some have gone and some remain.

All these places have their moments,

With lovers and friends I still can recall.

Some are dead and some are living;

In my life I've loved them all.

But of all these friends and lovers,

There is no one compares with you!

And these memories lose their meaning,

When I think of love as something new.

Though I know I'll never lose affection,

For people and things that went before.

I know I'll often stop and think about them;

In my life I love you more.

On an uglier note, I gotta go to school ina liddo bit-_-.

Fuckinggggg ayeeeee.

Kayyy,lovelys.

Have a beautiful day!

&Smileeeeeeeeeeeee! All of youuuuuuuuuuuu!

Whose to say dreams & nightmares aren't as real as here & now,hmm?


I've never known it for myself, that's why I don't believee.

Tatts & peircinggssss - Yeahhhh, that's a dream I can digg waking up frommm!

Loveeee it! =P

LMFAOO!

Keep pushing up your stairs - Beat up anyone that tries to fuck with you ; I'm prouddd(:

Delightful things like that is what I love waking up to.

Kayyy, Happy Thursdayyyy!

It's the3rdday of the year,hmph.

I'm not sure if time is moving fast or slow but, I knoww I wish it would hurry the fuckk upp.

I'm so readyy for this shittt(:

Ahhhhhh & photoshoot w'my shittwin/hero soon!

My agenda for life excites me ina real wayyy.

Productivity is progress.

I shouldaa been doing this forever agooo.

Smileeee,peopleee - It's never that serioussss!

You do what the fuck you do 'cause you wanna do it.

Don't like it? - Change it,silly!

You're life is in your hands! & You're soo youngg!

It hasn't even really begun yet.

This is just the beggining.

"One day your life is going to flash before your eyes - Make sure it was worth it."

Funny how just yesterday I was like BLAHHHH abt time & now I'm AHHHH abt time! I told

you I would start to get it together sooner than later(: Rawrrrrrr!

January 3rd, 2009 - I had to start somewhereeee!

♥

kayywhyyx.

HAPPY NEW YEARS, BITCHESSSS!

2009; You are minee for the takinggggg! Wrapped around the pretty little finger, you areeee!

So, Avriel & I are amazingggg & this is how we started our New Years Eve(:

& Now the clock is abt to turn midnighttttt.
Time to get the partyyy fuckingggg startedddd(:



HAPPY NEW YEARS,KIDDSSSS!
Pwuahahahhaa.
Pop Champangeeee!<3